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Sadie got to play in the snow today while I shoveled the driveway. She LOVES the snow! She burried herself in it and made a slide so she could slide down the snow piles. lol I LOVE HER!

No Secrets!

I must be grumpy .. I've had a weird weekend!

Sadie spent the weekend with her dad and within the first 5 minutes of being home from her dads she got sent to time out. She comes home I give her a big hug and tell her I missed her. She gets a grumpy look on her face and yells "I'm not telling you anything, it's none of your business!". So she got sent to her room until she could talk nice. How sad is that!? She came down and said she would talk nice to me and then she layed on the couch and cuddled with me. I told her that I don't ask her to not tell anyone else things about our house. I told her that if anyone ever asks her to keep a secret that she needs to tell someone. I told her that she is my business and she doesn't need to keep secrets. She then told me that Jamie (Brocks girlfriend) told her to not tell me anything about when Sadie goes to her daddys. I told her that I just need to know if she had fun and if they were nice to her. I told her that she can tell daddy anything that happens at our house because I don't need her to keep secrets. GRRRRR!!!

Poor Sadie is right in the middle of all of this ... She was doing so well for a while coming and going from daddys house, because the girlfriend had moved out. Now that she is back Sadie is struggling again, it takes her time to adapt back to being at moms and it takes more coaxing to get her to want to go to her dads. Does he not see this!? Does he not understand that Sadie is the number one priority and he needs to accomodate to her as well!? It's not her fault that her parents are divorced!

Heart to Heart with Sadie

So Sadie and I were laying in her bed talking about her day at school before she went to sleep. She told me that she is worried ... because she doesn't like any of the boys at her school. And she said what if I never get married? Oh My! My own insecurities are coming out in my 6 year old!!! I told her that she doesn't need to be married, because I am 28 and not married and it's ok. Now, can I talk myself into being ok with 28 and not being married?! Seriously!!

There are pros and cons to everything. Being single is great because I don't have to answer to anyone. I can go shopping and it's ok. If I am grumpy and need my space that's ok to! But I always had the idea that I would be married forever and be done with having kids by the time I was 30. Uuuuggghhh ... Did I ever think that I would be divorced?! Sure didn't! Don't get me wrong, I needed to be divorced. No one deserves to go thru the hurt that I went thru, but what happened to the "Once upon a time ... and they lived happily ever after?" Where's mine?!

I need to tell myself everyday is ... "Don't worry about the people in your past, there's a reason they didn't make it to your future."

Rest In Peace Boopie 01/02/10

Today is a sad day for our family. Boopie had to be put to sleep, because he was struggling to breathe. :( He was an excellent dog for us and was so good with all the little kids! He was grandpa's right hand man. Grandpa Rick and Boopie would go camping together and both even got sprayed by a skunk. We will miss him terribly!!

WE LOVE YOU BOOPIE, YOU ARE A GOOD DOG!